Steph

My Birthday is coming up and to normal people it would be an exciting thing. However for me not so much. I don't care that it is so close to x-mas. I just have bad memories of my "Special" day. It is hard to think of good times. If one would to look up when Birthdays started to become popular. It was during the time of the plague and they would celebrate that another year has gone by and you did not get hit by the plague. Kinda sad that it took a deadly illness that took a number of people away. Now we still celebrate. But Why? yeah we lived another year but is that really what we should be doing. I have gone many years not caring anymore. It is not a really special to me anymore. Maybe we as people get older and see what really is important in life. Life is not just about me their are other people in this world. why should the day of me entering this world be so special? I have not done anything to celebrate. I am still trying to find my way. I am lost right now so why should I celebrate another year of me being lost in my life. It makes no sense.

Maybe one day I will care again.
Maybe one year I will have a reason to celebrate my birthday.
However for now I see no point.