Steph

As a young child I loved summer like all do. But now that I am older it is not as fun as I remember. It was 3 moths of now school, fun at the beach, at the water park. But all that is gone now well I still have some of those days. But it is not all my summer now. Now it has to do with finding a job and living a life. 2 things that I don't have and never gotten good at. It is all a learning experience. I'm not sure what my summer will hold for me. I guess there is only 1 way to find out and that is to live. Through the hard times and the times when people tell me what they think when I really don't want there 2 cents. But at times I feel like being a child and enjoying summer again. I think back and how badly I wanted to grow up. Now all I want to do is be a kid again. Unfortunately I can't go back in time. So I will live today as if it is the last and enjoy it so in another 20 years I wont go back and say "o how I wish for those days again."
Think back on your favorite things that u did as a kid during the summer. Do 1 or 2 of them this summer you are never to old to enjoy your summer. I know I'm not and I will go to the beach and maybe the water part even the aquarium which I haven't been to since I was like in 3rd grade. Yeah I am going to enjoy while I work the best of 2 world.

Ever fell like whatever you do is just not good enough??? Or you are helping out someone and no matter how much work you do that person just is not satisfied???Well I fell like that most of the time... I try to help my mom around the house and do whatever I can to make her life easy... However it still not good enough... Like I did nothing she finds the 1 or 2 thing I didn't do or I just forgot to do... I try my hardest every time... It doesn't help that she has told me that she didn't want me... So I fell like I have to prove to her that it was a good thing that she had me.. Then again at times I'm not sure really was it a good thing that I am on this earth... She remindes me that my brother was planed and I was not... So why I am still around... Well I guess I never really had a mom growing-up.. When I was little I was shipped off to live other family members... So now that I live at home I wan't her to be the mom I have always wanted... I don't think that will ever happen and it sucks... I fell like I did something wrong... So I try to be the best daughter that I can... So she doesn't regret having me... But no matter what I do it just well just not GOOD ENOUGH!!!!!!!