Steph

Ever fell like whatever you do is just not good enough??? Or you are helping out someone and no matter how much work you do that person just is not satisfied???Well I fell like that most of the time... I try to help my mom around the house and do whatever I can to make her life easy... However it still not good enough... Like I did nothing she finds the 1 or 2 thing I didn't do or I just forgot to do... I try my hardest every time... It doesn't help that she has told me that she didn't want me... So I fell like I have to prove to her that it was a good thing that she had me.. Then again at times I'm not sure really was it a good thing that I am on this earth... She remindes me that my brother was planed and I was not... So why I am still around... Well I guess I never really had a mom growing-up.. When I was little I was shipped off to live other family members... So now that I live at home I wan't her to be the mom I have always wanted... I don't think that will ever happen and it sucks... I fell like I did something wrong... So I try to be the best daughter that I can... So she doesn't regret having me... But no matter what I do it just well just not GOOD ENOUGH!!!!!!!